Currently reading: Lisa Jackson - Lost Souls (First time I'm taking a month to read a book) Note: I'm not near finishing.

After that book, I'm definitely proceeding on to: The girl who played with fire. The girl who kicked the hornet's nest and The girl with the dragon tattoo. Recommended! Due to book, magazines, newspaper reviews and Buddy.

Graduation Assignment's due on the 25th September. 3000 word essay. I've not started. Really racing against time. Ahhh.

Though the hiccups regarding yesterday's heinous 'result', all's back on track again. It is heartening to know both parties are happy. Somehow at that point of time, it was definitely hollow inside without love. Empty. A useless vessel. Digging further, my stamina isn't so good. Gym's always jam-packed. I guess I'd have to stick to the routined 8pm run, round the estate. Compared to Subeer's, mine's a far cry from 'good'. Therein lies laziness. Jog X Walk! Keep it consistent, I shall. Always habitual, comforting myself, that by brisk walking, it isn't doing much of a harm. Guess I'm proven wrong. Nonetheless, with the right mentality, I am hardy enough to overcome this.

Betweenthetlines to troublesmeltlikelemondrops.tumblr.com. Thumblr's basically for inspirational pictures. Not making a switch any time soon I guess. Go Blogger! :)

Goodnight. xx

& GN sang to, Somewhere Over The Rainbow.

To prevent my mind from going into an overdrive.
Goodnight/morning. (03:21am)

Hi readers,

I know you are there because something tells me so. Share with me how life's treating you, how everything your going through is driving you to an early grave, who you love spending your 5-11 hours with, what's on your mind right now, even the sin of excessive consumption of food your craving for. I'm kind of stuck right now, on what I should be filling this space with. It seemed that everything I'm about to spill, is turning to a personal affair. (The fact, I'm a really private person). Or maybe, I should continue this 'sharing session', perhaps to attract a motley crew. Formidable enough, a one sentence post. Well, according to dighead_lorry27@hotmail.com, he might just bug me all day for longer posts. Therefore, to ensure 'safety', I guess I'm sticking to my buffer zone.

I fervently believe I'm going to get through all this late nights and sleeping disorder once I'm done with my Graduation Project. Its like an average part of getting through the day, as much so ho-hum-life-sucks-and-then-you-die. Probably, a malady that easily could have ended my life - would become a national joke. Digging further, having yawned 9 out of the 10 times, is somehow... Unberable. (Like what my Maths teacher, Mr Lin, saying about how unberable we'll become if we're unable to ace Bearings questions). To solve the whole equation, I simply need someone to entertain me. (Like what Tracy, Loretta and Gerald did today, a form of chagrin, really woke me up).

Have to go now. Keep it real. Take care.

As I type this, songs from We Shot The Moon and Michael Learns to Rock, goes on replay. What a weird combination, but its pretty damn good.

Scrolling through my 'Bookmarks', I clicked on ______'s* livejournal/blog/tumblr. Every night, without fail, I'll be crossing my fingers, hoping lady luck's on my side, to see if there's a new post by her. The way she blogs, makes me want to carry on reading more, so much more, till to the very last post, or may be even, rereading it all over again. Her page, entertains me. With the wide range of vocabulary used, she makes me want to pick that dictionary up, and memorize the whole thick load. She gives me inspiration. On top of that,I could actually put myself in her shoes, "experiencing" all that that she's going through. How I wish, I can ameliorate the whole situation she's facing. As a matter of fact, we're pretty much on the same boat.

* I won't mention who she is, because I know, questions, comments, sick jokes or wisecracks will come knocking. A secret, it shall be.

1 week break, in preparation for the upcoming examinations. Ahh, I'm really nervous, but at the same time, can't wait to get it all over and done with.

Its 2:10am, & I've a date with WJ tomorrow at 11am.
I'll set my body alarm and phone alarm. 7:30am.

Ahhh, also, * is the reason, I'm starting to blog all over again.

I missed how you watched me from across the dining table, making sure I ate my food.
I missed how you grabbed my wrist, telling me how thin it was.
I missed how you gave me that reassuring look when you could tell, I wasn't myself.
I missed how you sat beside me when I was 5, filling my sticker-book with new stickers.
I missed how you taught me to hold a pencil/pen the correct way.
I missed how you told me stories of the past.
I missed how you pat my head, telling me I was a good girl.
I missed how you came up to me every Saturday, telling me to help out with the housework.

I missed all these little things.
You might think I don't notice, but I do.
I regret not spending enough time with you, now that you're in such a state.
I hate stifling my tears, so no one could hear.
I hate pretending I'm okay, when clearly, I'm not.

I want to stay by your side, holding your warm hands, hoping you'll understand how much I want you to stay strong, and not give up. Selfish as it may sound, I don't want you to leave, not now, not any time soon.

I love you, Granddad.

So how did you spent your New Year?

Doing something for a change, unlike the usual, catching the countdown celebration on channel 5 with relatives from all over, this year, I spent it with Loretta, Marilyn and Priscilla. They were amazing and I really enjoyed their company. It definitely transcended just amazing.

The four of us shared the same denominator, for the fact we wanted to catch the beautiful fireworks. Though some may say, its just f.i.r.e.w.o.r.k.s, we thought that to catch it live and with great company, this was something intangible. We laughed till our sides hurt, playing Poker and Taiti, to keep us preoccupied before the clock strikes midnight. The excitement and anticipation led us to shouting at the top of our voices, accompanied by fellow strangers surrounding us. Its pretty amazing how different pedigree of people, hailed from the same place, were able to assimilate in together for the biggest celebration of the year. On top of that, its pleasant to see how others in their own way, endearing to the four of us.

We covered 3/4 of what the four of us, individually look out for in a guy. From the hair, eye, lips, body, dressing, personality and so on. Its funny because, this entertained us so well. Apparently, that was the picture of our perfect guy. Up to this date, no one filled the whole criteria, yet. (Hahaha!) Time, time, time...

EBKJA. XX.

Show addiction.

2nd day of work and it is already so tiresome. I've never felt so drained out before. My legs feeling all wobbly, due to the 8 hours of standing. Never have I felt so miserable.

I missed mummy's cooking. Anyway, met a whole bunch of new friends (mostly from the West Side), Valerie, Shasha, Libi, Dutt, Elane, Mr Fazial and Miss Yoshin, just to name a few. They're such affable people (even the cleaner lady!!), making oneself feel so welcomed. It is great working with them, it is such pleasant experience. This makes me look forward to work everyday. 3 more days, and I'm done.

On the way home in the train, nothing entertained me more than observing the brand of clothes worn by both male and female. From high end boutiques of Banana Republic, Ralph Lauren, Zara to affordable brands of G200, Mango, Topshop, Club21, DKNY, and the most affordable and cheapest, This Fashion, Cart shops, Peninsula Plaza, Bugis Street, etc. On top of that, looking at how a formidable lady in her mid thirties rushing for the empty seat, without sparing a thought for the elderly who clearly was eyeing on it for a long time. Where their heart went? And what disgusted me was, when I saw how this men took advantage of the crowd in the train, that he went so close to this China lady, smelling her hair, pushing his body so close to hers. Though I would not say all men are like that, but they ought to do some soul-searching.

Alright. I'm wiped. Gonna turn in now.

Be safe. XX

Kwiyowo kwiyowo utseulttae kwiyowo
Nomu kwiyowo naman-eui yeonin keudae
Moshisseo moshisseo nomu moshisseoseo
Gaseumi k'ongdak k'ongdak ddwineungeol eottokhae
Turyeowo turyeowo neo-eui keu tu nunbit
Ppajweo beorilgeo katta yojeum suyeongbaewo
Sekshihae sekshihae neo-eui keu swaegolppyeo k'iseuhae jugo ship'eun maeum imank'eum

:)

Brother is coming home tonight! Its been 5 days, I missed him. The family's going to pick him up, in a while. Anyway, bumped into K and E today. Lovely couple. :)

Gotta go get change! Toodles. XX